Sunday, November 10, 2013

Birthday, Boston, and back (& the vision of a Creator)

The site of the Boston Tea Party...on the way to the convention center from the South Station.
The weeks have been flying by, mostly without hitting too many tree-branches in the periphery :) I had the amazing opportunity of presenting at the American Public Health Association annual meeting in Boston in the past week and am mustering up patience and focus to return to a busy fall semester at the dental school. It's just a few short weeks until Thanksgiving break and final exams! Enjoy below snippets that I've captured along the way.


The traditional autumn scene at the pulpit during the Slavik harvest festival at the start of October.
My hard-working colleagues prepare for our first "tEEEth talk" workshop, a partnership with the Richmond City Parent Teacher Associations that we've worked hard to establish this semester. 
We packaged 520 dental goodie bags with brush/paste and a community resources sheet. tEEEth talk aims to educate low health literacy groups about oral health, equip individuals with oral hygiene tools, and engage groups that have trouble accessing oral healthcare with community resources. I have big hopes for the group as our class community service committee establishes what I hope is a sustainable educational outreach opportunity for dental students. 
Jenny and I with Molar Mike before our first elementary school workshop.
It was great to visit some friends for a knitting night on the evening of my 21st birthday!
A prayer bracelet--reminiscing Jamaica (July 2013):

After bouncing around on Jamaican hillsides for several hours with a taxi-driver, not convinced that either of us knew exactly where we were headed, I was very relieved to see the gates of the Robin's nest children's home. Unloading my possessions and dismissing the taxi driver, I began to wonder where I should report to inform the home director of my arrival. After moving my bags inside the main building, I greeted a boy and asked if he knew where Ms. Katie was. Receiving a shoulder-shrug and "no" in response, I asked him about the bracelet he was weaving, telling him that I thought it was pretty. Without hesitation, he said, "You can have it." I tried to resist, insisting it was probably too small for my wrist and that he should gift it to a smaller-wristed friend. Disregarding my suggestions, the boy wrapped his weaving around my wrist and had me help him tie it tightly into place, promptly moving on to his next order of business, not mentioning the action during my stay or when I departed.

After returning to the States form my brief visit in Jamaica, I thought about removing the bracelet. It has been over three months since that day and the weaving still holds strongly onto my wrist. I have considered the gift a commitment and reminder to pray for the thoughtfully generous boy and the Robin's nest children's home as a whole. Once the remaining four threads wear through, the bracelet will remain a keepsake of my visit to the Robin's nest, but I hope to seek out a physical reminder similar to this prayer bracelet to encourage me to lay individuals and ministries into the hands of our Heavenly Father.

What a great professional network!
This year's theme for the meeting/exposition 
Subway musicians are so talented! This man explained that his Chinese violin was made of a steel string, bamboo, horse tail hair, and a snake skin-enclosed body at the bottom. If I end up retiring in a large city, maybe I'll consider becoming a subway musician : ) ...I bet I could do that anywhere, really. 

During the opening session, the president of the APHA offered the below poem as a challenge to all attendees. Hearing recently from a professor that I "march to the rhythm of my own drum," I find the poem encouraging:

"To Risk"

by William Arthur Ward (and Janet Rand)


To laugh is to risk appearing a fool,
To weep is to risk appearing sentimental.

To reach out to another is to risk involvement,
To expose feelings is to risk exposing your true self.

To place your ideas and dreams before a crowd is to risk their loss.

To love is to risk not being loved in return,
To live is to risk dying,
To hope is to risk despair,
To try is to risk failure.

But risks must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

The person who risks nothing, does nothing, has nothing, is nothing.

He may avoid suffering and sorrow,
But he cannot learn, feel, change, grow or love.

Chained by his certitude, he is a slave; he has forfeited all freedom.

Only a person who risks is truly free.

The pessimist complains about the wind;

The optimist expects it to change;


And the realist adjusts the sails.


Boston Symphony House, near to the hotel where I stayed.
The best cannoli's in Boston!

The vision of our Creator:

It was one of those gloomy fall mornings when the sun lazily makes its way up while we are all still expected to heed the clock and rush to begin our daily tasks. As I made another sharp turn on my regular bike route to school--settling into a common critical routine of listing what remained on my to-do list and evaluating the outcomes of completed tasks--I swerved a little to avoid several pieces of thin black metal rods, like those used to make industrial hangers. My first instinct was to identify the object and speculate how it had ended up on the road. Not being able to come up with anything convincing, I decided that the arrangement reminded me of a mobile; in fact, I even thought about turning around to retrieve the scrap to turn it into such an item as it already resembled a mobile. Dismissing the thought as I made my next turn, I returned to inventorying weekly tasks.

Several days later, forgetting the could-be mobile encounter, I found myself swerving to avoid the same object--this time as I'd been evaluating the day and thinking years into the future. Recognizing the familiar item and feeling some kind of connection to it, my grimace (upon hearing the metal clink as I rode over it with my back wheel) turned into a smirk (as I recalled my silly idea of turning the mysterious scrap into a mobile). The fact that the object had migrated to the other side of the road and still had not been claimed (or removed) made me pity the object, now slightly personified after the second encounter. Almost immediately, lyrics from a song that I had sung as part of the Russian Baptist youth came to mind: "You just picked me up..." I never enjoyed the contemporary song as it was repetitive and disregarded the usual rich melancholy melody of traditional Slavic hymns; nonetheless, it clearly describes the transformed perspective on life that accompanies a faith commitment.

As I turned into my home's neighborhood, I saw the vibrant autumn foliage all along the lane and realized that I may have been riding around as if with blinders on for the past couple of weeks. Seeing the intricate beauty of nature, developing in its right time, I wondered how I might incorporate the Creator's vision in the trajectory of my life. I wondered about God's mind being too creative to be boxed up into seeing me as who I am today, flaws and inadequacies in plenty. "Picking me up" from the side of the road, might He care more about transforming me into His image?...shaped in ways consistent with furthering His purpose in the "now, not-yet" Kingdom that Jesus proclaimed? Ephesians 2:10, part of the sermon my dad delivered when I visited my childhood home church over my birthday weekend, provides some assurance: "For we are God's handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do" (NIV). [Some classic verses from Jeremiah are also inspiring: Jer 1:5, 29:11, 33:3]. It is my wish to maintain such a perspective more consistently and treat those with whom I interact by incorporating the same mindset.

The tortoise and the hare...a classic tale. 
The historic North End offers Italian corner shops...when your cashier emerges from kneading dough with floured hands and communicates the price of a baguette by showing up some fingers, you know the bread has to be good!
I think I had found a family of like-minded professionals amidst the 13,000 attendees! I look forward to growing collegially with them in improving the (oral) health of the public.

Boston's Holocaust memorial
Each tower has prisoners' numbers and quotes engraved on them and a continuous steam is produced from within each tower that simulates what the gas chamber towers may have looked like.
My brand-new adorable niece! I look forward to meeting her in person over Thanksgiving break in a couple of weeks.

Saturday, October 5, 2013

Fear into faith

I pass this question every evening on my way home from school. It appears in an alley behind a church; it seems like 'of the dark' has been whited out. It is a useful question to ask when I consider my faith.
Daily passing Byrd Lake, especially at sunset, helps puts the days into perspective.

The middle of the fall semester has arrived and I begin to understand what upperclassmen meant by saying that the second year of dental school is the most challenging. There are plenty of exciting things going on for extracurricular groups that I'm passionately involved in, so I can fully admit gambling with my academics and will move to managing and balancing these interests instead of denying the existence of risky equilibrium. When folks inquire how I am doing, I have begun to reply that there is plenty for me to enjoy and plenty to complain about but that I am chugging along and trying to stay jolly. I will not be a student forever but speculate that opportunities to spread myself thin will exist indefinitely. I hope I can transition into utilizing the power of a positive 'no' as I establish my career and adult life. Speaking of which, I will finally be eligible for a horizontally-oriented driver's license at the end of this month! Some of my thoughts these weeks have thus been reflective on the passing of another year of my life and what might come to be. It is always easy to slip into anxious fear of the future when pondering possibilities, but I think these are exactly the opportunities that allow our faith to develop and grow. Below is a Russian song with translation that has been on my mind and encourages me to complete my 21st year and enter the next one with peace and confidence.

It was fun to imagine what the next ten years of my life might be like, considering dental residency programs and my dental service commitment in an underserved area.

My General Practice Group with our lead attending faculty.
The Inter Health Professional Alliance executive team after a breakfast meeting. It's been such a great experience to lead such a comraderial group of professionals! I hope these networks will be sustained into the future of our careers.
1. Нашей жизни суета бесконечна и пустаОт забот мы устаём, что-то ищем, что-то ждёмГод за годом, день за днём.Ты пролей свой дивный свет, на вопросы дай ответ,От Тебя совета жду и оставив суету,Я к Тебе с мольбой иду.

Припев: Помоги мне устоять,Как бы больно жизнь не била,Помоги мне мудрой стать,Дай мне, Бог, добра и силы.Сохрани прошу, мой Бог,От жестокости и боли.Помоги мне не забыть,Что на всё здесь Твоя воля.

2. И за всё в своей судьбе благодарна я Тебе:За надежды и мечты и за то, что рядом Ты,Бог Любви и доброты.Ты по жизни проведёшь, ты услышишь и поймёшь.Вновь оставив суету, от Тебя совета ждуИ к Тебе с мольбой иду.

The "Pensive Christ" carving I brought back from my Lithuania study-abroad experience in 2010 keeps me company at my desk. I DO wonder what he ponders over at times...
We wove our active commitments for a unified congregation into the "Circle of Faith" during a weekend church retreat. It has been such a blessing to share my current journey (as well as take part in theirs) with those with whom I reunite for weekly Christ-family reunions!
How encouraging a quote!
Translation:
The vanity of our lives is endless and empty.
We tire of tasks, seeking and awaiting something
Year after year, day after day...
Shed your divine light!
Grant answers to the questions!
I'm awaiting your direction; leaving all vanity
I come to you with my plea:

Help me to stand firm, no matter how hard life hits.
Help me grow in wisdom.
Grant me, God, goodness and strength.
Protect me, I ask, my God
From cruelty and pain.
Help me not forget that Your will exists for everything here 

For all that is in my destiny, I am thankful!
For the hopes and dreams and that You are near,
The God of love and goodness.
You will lead me through life,
You will hear and understand me.
Again, leaving the vanity
I seek your direction and come to you with my plea.
It was fun to repeat last year's 30 mile route in the Valley.
Sun, my classmate, and I offered a series of duets for the Friends of Dental Education appreciation dinner. I thoroughly enjoyed the experience but am a bit perplexed about how draining and almost soul-deadening professional social events end up for me. I can't pin the adverse effect to one causative factor and wonder if I will suddenly find these events enriching once my professional identity is more concretely formed.
I enjoyed a trip up to Carter Mountain in Charlottesville to pick apples. I look forward to preparing applesauce with a group this Sunday for use during the church's CARITAS homeless housing ministry in several weeks.
So much of the fallen fruit simply over-ripens, gets trampled, and eventually decomposes. I wonder how I might move from considering it a waste to valuing the beauty of the processes in their nutrient-returning capacities for the soil.
So I move forward, meeting possible fears by allowing them to strengthen my faith, because "we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." -Romans 8:28 NIV

Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Songs speak the seasons


The start of the Nickel Bridge...the trains that I hear when at my current home must originate here.
Returning to Richmond...I think cycling has proven to be effective in more fully appreciating the city as my home.

As we dive deeper into the fall semester and anticipate the changing of seasons, I'd like to jot down a few songs that have been infused into my life recently and how they might hint at the seasons through which I've gone. Feel free to click on the titles to view a recording of the song.

59th Street Bridge Song (Simon and Garfunkel)
As I emerged from 2.5 years at Eastern Mennonite University, I found this song resonating with my desire to "slow down" and "make the moment last." I wanted to move towards "lookin' for fun" and "feelin' groovy." I have continued to enjoy listening to the song and thinking about its message but haven't mastered this mysterious grooviness in practice.

You Can't Hurry Love (The Supremes)
Finding it difficult to enjoy several weeks of faulty experiments as I volunteered in a microbiology lab and when I struggled with afternoons in a dental simulation course later that summer, I found this song matching the pedaling cadents on various evenings as I cycled home, wondering "how long must I wait," playing this "game of give and take" before I could call these endeavors "my own."

Do You Know Where You're Going To? (Diana Ross)
One semester into dental school, I was still adjusting to a large school; more importantly though, I'd started to tap into the diverse resources that a large city and health professional campus offers. I wondered how many opportunities I could afford to accept engagement in before it appeared that I was taking my dental education for granted. I chose to acknowledge that I didn't exactly "know where [I was] going to" and that I wanted to "like the things that life [would show me]." In order to "get what [I'm] hoping for" I decided to embrace opportunities that presented themselves so that I didn't have to "look behind [me to see that] there's no open doors." I hope that decisions that I've made thus far haven't left my dental studies completely in the dust, but I suppose we sometimes "must wait so long before we see how sad the answers to those questions can be."
A pleasant message at a friends' home.
In the bulb, there is a flower (Natalie Sleeth)
Leading music at church, I encountered this song in mid-spring. The words of hope for something that is "unrevealed until its season; something God alone can see" were very encouraging to one who was doing some professional soul-searching.

The Summons (John Bell)
Again encountering a challenging song by leading music at church, I returned to this song all throughout the end of the semester and summer, letting this snippet of questions from the song infiltrate various decisions: "Will you go where you don't know and never be the same...Will you leave yourself behind if I but call your name...Will your risk the hostile stare, should your life attract or scare...Will you kiss the leper clean and do such as this unseen...Will you use the faith you've found to reshape the world around?" The address became accentuated when I visited a public health mentor (a leader in oral health literacy), whose goal during my visit seemed to be to persuade me to pursue a career in public health. Continuing to develop my interests for working with the geriatric population and engaging in a interprofessional group on campus through outreach and scholarly publications, I yearned to say, confused as ever, "In Your company I'll go, where Your love and footsteps show...thus I'll move and live and grow in You and You in me."
Cattle begin their munching on Labor Day weekend. Cycling by morning in the Valley is spectacular! (For the most part, I can stay on the bike and resist trying to capture all of the beauty on camera)
Moon River (Johnny Mercer, Henry Mancini, Audrey Hepburn)
House-sitting for some friends, I watched Breakfast at Tiffany's for the first time and thought about the synergy vs. separation of naive persistence and earnest commitment and where passion and calling might fit.

If You Want to Sing Out, Sing Out (Cat Stevens)
A day before my final general pathology exam in the summer term, feeling a bit fatigued with studying as well as being dizzy with working in the lab and organizing/teaching an organic chemistry workshop, I found this song a relief, telling me, "If you want to be free, be free; 'cuz there's a million things to be, you know that there are....If you want to live high, live high; if you want to live low, live low; 'cuz there's a million ways to go, you know that there are....You can do what you want, the opportunities are; and if you find a new way, you can do it today." I marched happily in and out of the final exam, realizing that in the grand scheme of things, I did fairly well and could move on to better things. This song feels almost dangerously empowering and, although I still enjoy it, I strive to resist brushing things away nonchalantly when they ought to be payed some diligent attention.
Our first community service project, a school supplies drive, was delivered to the Church Hill Activities and Tutoring center of East Richmond today. I look forward to leading the committee and our class this year in engaging with the city!
Was it Ever Really Mine? (Jon Troast)
Encountering this song later in the summer, I considered my consumerist habits...not only with money but my student status, time, and relationships. These lines are especially insightful: "Cuz the store's full of things that I don't need, and the world's full of mouths that I can't feed....but I don't want to buy what I don't need, and I don't want to own what I can't keep...and if I'm gonna have to leave it all behind, was it ever really mine?" It is easy for me to slip into living a life that defaults to a perception of scarcity: there's not enough encouragement, not enough time, not enough healthy communication, but I'm reminded by another song encountered during church music-leading that we seek to realize the plea to "make us Your bread, broken for others, shared until all are fed!" In a humbly dependent scarcity, countering the instinct of hoarding and the challenge of hollow altruism, I continue to seek the abundant life-giving manna, finding it, questioning it, but accepting it gratefully.

The below quote has pleasantly bothered me in recent months:
I used to ask God to help me.
Then I asked if I might help Him.
I ended up by asking Him to do His work through me.
     --James Hudson Taylor (1832-1905)
I had the opportunity to listen to Pastor Leonard Dow's experience with engaging the Oxford Circle community in Philadelphia, PA several weeks ago and realize that perhaps we take full ownership of a task only when we understand that it is "not our own." Perhaps this is the joy that Taylor hints at in the above quote.

Monday, August 12, 2013

Jamaica, New England, and back to Richmond

Cycling around my parents' home in Weyers Cave, VA made me realize that I appreciate this scenery even more than shores of the Caribbean
A new semester arrives:
It's been a well-spent six weeks away from the dental school (I'm definitely ready to get back to my dental studies!). I enjoyed serving in Jamaica for two weeks with a dental group and was glad to spend time with family camping at a state park on the Chesapeake Bay, as we have annually done for nearly 15 years. I was delighted to shadow a medical director and his team at several nursing home facilities in my hometown and provided an in-service talk on oral hygiene to one of the facilities' nurse teams. I joined a group of bicyclists for a five day ride in the Finger Lakes region of NY; cycling over 250 miles, the group raised funds for Mennonite Central Committee's reforestation and environmental education efforts in Haiti. Returning from upstate New York for two days of orientation at the dental school, I am able to evade the heat and humidity of Richmond for several more days while at a summit in Falmouth, Massachusetts with the National Interprofessional Initiative on Oral Health, to which a senior medical student (the founding president) and I (the current president) have been invited to share about VCU's student initiated and led Inter Health Professionals Alliance. I regret not being enrolled in any gerontology courses this semester, as I am advised to get a taste of the challenging second year of dental school before taking on an extra academic load, but was delighted to receive an invitation to join the newly formed Long-Term Care Dental Access Work Group for the Virginia Dental Association. I look forward to all the academic and extracurricular aspects of my third semester of dental school. As the opportunities continue to roll in, I hope I might discern how to 'pull in the reins' before a person or situation has to be burdened with the task....but so far, excitement is overshadowing such prudent caution.

These little reptiles would appear in the morning and evening to take care of some of the insects at our guesthouse in Jamaica

The 'Tree House' guesthouse offered an ocean-hovering porch on the coral-laden shore

Locals (and those traveling from a distance) await dental treatment at the Helping Hand Dental Clinic

The cheerfully busy dental clinic
A shy but friendly Jamaican

My last two days in Jamaica were spent at a children's home near Montego Bay

A jolly family portrait

Picking guineps with Jerome, who unceremoniously gifted me a bracelet he'd woven within five minutes of my arrival at the Robin's Nest

Reflections from Jamaica:
Walking down a dusty neighborhood street without the validation of scrubs in the late afternoon (just as locals emerged from their homes to begin evening fellowship), I wondered how my trespassing might be enriching rather than disruptive. Informal interactions often involve pleas for financial attention, requests for a response to comments about physical appearance, or simple mutual passivity. The staged feel of such exchanges seems empty and draining, perhaps because certain expectations are assigned to each side. An unscripted (and therefore unexpected) response on either side of the interaction might provide an avenue out of such impersonal junctions into more enriching exchanges.

Trying to look forward after a brief greeting, as we passed a group of Jamaicans near a small grocery shop, I focused on lightly tossing my newly purchased mango. Not hearing the beginning of the address, I comprehended, "Can I have a mango?" Regretting that my mango-tossing attracted attention, I turned and tossed the mango with a smile, turning back around to continue my trek. Being called back, my mango-requesting friend approached to return the mango, saying, "It's OK; take it back," which I clarified, "Are you sure? You can have it." His response, "I didn't know you would be so kind," caught me off guard. The statement seemed both insulting and flattering, perhaps hinting at an underlying intent for the exchange. Uttering a sheepish "Thank you," I resumed my mango-tossing journey, feeling content and hopeful about the positive fingerprint I may have left on the interaction.

The Jamaican's surprise at my "kindness" caused me to wonder how I succeeded or failed at showing the same characteristic in other situations during the week. I cherished the occasional complement from a patient about having enjoyed the treatment, performed by a "gentle and kind" clinician and am challenged to return home and seek opportunities to thus surprise people.
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Opening the shutters on an early Jamaican morning to a beautiful country scape with mountains in the distance, I hear goats, birds, and chickens starting about their daily business. Someone starts pounding a hammer on a construction project and the never-ceasing breeze ruffles palm branches; meanwhile, waves rush somewhere in the background. Waking in such a setting on several mornings, I consider what it would be like to call this land home. Would I arise a bit earlier, before the sun becomes harsh, and pick up my hammer to join the neighbor on his project? How long would it take before I would stop hearing the unique sounds of animals and nature? When did I cease to thus stop to listen and look at my surroundings in the States?

One of my friends commented on a picture I sent by saying, "Jamaica looks and sounds like paradise." In my response, I expressed my desire to be content wherever I go, hopeful that if we fully appreciate, respect, and love our homes and surroundings, they would indeed be paradise (perhaps even akin to the Kingdom of the Heavens, as the gospel of Matthew talks about). I return to my home with fresh eyes and ears, hoping to be more conscious of my surroundings and my intended interaction with them.

Sunset on the artificial reef at Kiptopeke State Park on the Eastern Shore of Virginia, a place that has become an annual time to retreat and reconnect with the family after being scattered and distracted during the school year

I attended the Virginia Mennonite Conference assembly, the theme of which was "See the signs of God's Kingdom among us"....this was my favorite sign

The MCC Finger Lakes bike ride logo on our complimentary t-shirts

Soufrana Elistin, a Hatian woman, receiving seedlings as part of the MCC reforestation and environmental education programs that we raised over $50k for during our five day ride. Her quote on the back reads, "These trees are our lives. They allow us to eat and make a living and send our kids to school." Soufrana rode with us in our jersey pockets as we cycled over 250 miles in tree-abundant upstate NY

Seneca Lake, one of the Finger Lakes, all of which were carved into the land by glaciers

One of our camp sites...I have definitely become fond of evergreens and wildflowers on the side of the road 

Seneca Falls, a historic town for the women's rights movement

Stopping for a refreshment and directions while on a detour

My first set of business cards....dental appointment cards adapted to represent the student initiated and led interprofessional outreach organization at a summit of 43 national leaders in the health professions who are passionate about cross-disciplinary collaboration to address oral health disparities in our country

Article response to a conference sponsored by the Christian Medical and Dental Association:
Get up,” Jesus told him, “pick up your mat and walk!” I sat awe-stricken as the story continued to be read at a weeknight prayer meeting, imagining what it would be like to receive these words from the Messiah and at the same time hearing the Spirit echoing exactly this address into my own heart. Revisiting the story of Jesus’ third miracle, according to the gospel of John, after attending this year’s Emerging Leaders in Dentistry (ELD) Symposium has allowed me to continue reflecting on the abundant words of wisdom and life experiences that were shared at the meeting. The story of Jesus’ radical healing encourages me to apply what I heard and saw at the symposium to my life as a disciple of Christ, dental student, and future oral healthcare professional. I’ll review several moments from the symposium that caught my attention and will try to convey how I’ve been inspired by the above-mentioned gospel story to apply those snippets.

A foundation for the symposium was quickly established when Dr. DeWitt Wilkerson challenged us to transition from thinking about success towards striving for significance. He reminded us that God seeks those that are available, not necessarily those that are capable to do His work. Dr. Wilkerson encouraged us, in considering the trajectory of our career paths, to use strategic planning, asking ourselves the question, “What would things be like if they were the best they could be?” and then taking action to get there, as apposed to using the mundane past-present-future projections of long-term planning. Dr. Peter Dawson demonstrated how to verbalize genuine patient-centered care by recommending that we use phrases like “Help me understand your concerns” and “Let me help you understand.” The symposium then took on the role of a summons, as we were stretched to consider how to more fully merge vocation with ministry as Christian dentists. Captain Michael Marks aptly noted during a dentist panel discussion, “Ships are safe in a harbor, but that’s not what ships are for.” Ms. Joan Forrest, inviting us to intentional life and practice, suggested, “If you don’t know where you’re going, any road will take you there.” Dr. John Hall’s Sunday morning message challenged us to admit that “dentistry is a key,” pushing us to consider, “Which lock will we use it to open?” Being somewhat facetious but truthfully direct, he offered 3 items of advice on how to “ruin your life and miss your calling”: 1) pursue the American Dream (disregarding God’s purposes), 2) be unequally yoked (with a life-partner who is hesitant to pursue God’s will), and 3) continue listening to truth without acting on it (becoming progressively more calloused). Interacting with a diverse group of students, dentists, and other healthcare professionals during meals and throughout the symposium deepened the words that we heard and helped put life into the concepts that were presented. The three brief days left us all looking forward to returning with other colleagues for the following year’s symposium.

Now if we return to the five colonnades of the pool in Jerusalem called Bethesda, we would see a man lying on his mat amidst a debilitated crowd. Perhaps some of us would even recognize a part of ourselves in this person.  As for many of the others, his life has been reduced to a restrained existence, likely dominated by the expectation to receive his next provision, necessary for the continuation of life as he knows it. A mutual longing for liberation hangs in the air around these pools. Juxtaposing such hope, a rival tension is felt.  Healing is seemingly scarce, offered to those who faithfully wait for the angel’s descent into the pool. Waiting and recognizing the stirring water is not enough; one must be swift enough to reach it first. This particular sick man has been there for 38 years! He ardently waits for his turn to experience the healing stir of the waters, which he earnestly believes will free him from his confining ailment. He must look patiently content, though, since Jesus approaches him asking, “Do you want to get well?” Perhaps justifying the excuse that he has accepted as reality, the sick man responds to Jesus by explaining that he does not have someone to help him reach the stirring water before another takes advantage of its healing power. Here, Jesus doesn’t move to a more optimistic cripple or rebuke him of his doubt in God’s abundant and unlimited healing potential; neither does He offer advice for finally succeeding in the plan he may have depended on for nearly four decades. Jesus simply commands him into healed action: “Get up,” Jesus told him, “pick up your mat and walk!” The Messiah doesn’t just allow him to leave his mat healed to do what he pleases; Jesus tells him to pick up the mat he’s lied on for 38 years and walk with it, a controversial thing to do on the Sabbath, mind you. The sick man doesn’t contend with Jesus, offering his latest plan for reaching the stirring water first. Nor does he refuse to accept the charge of walking with his mat, which is likely mangled and soiled from long-term use. He must not have thought twice about Jesus’ words because we read, Instantly the man got well, picked up his mat, and started to walk. The gospel story goes on to tell of how Jesus was challenged by the pious Jews for healing on the Sabbath, and we don’t know what became of our healed friend, except that Jesus told him to sin no more. Perhaps he was given the liberty to develop an abundant life in his own creativity, springing forth from his healing encounter with Christ.

I will close by sharing a few questions that I’ve considered in thinking about being such a mat-ridden cripple, while trying to sort through highlights from the ELD Symposium: What has developed into a comfortable mat for me, whether or not I realize its confining nature? Do I gravitate towards a company of people that are also seeking healing into a more abundant life? How well-developed is my plan for retiring or moving off from the mat and how does this oppose the ability of God to act through me on His own terms? Whose additional action do I expect to catalyze my healing, and what hindering excuses result of such expectations? How will or do I react to Christ’s radical call to healed action? Am I willing to be ridiculed or even rebuked for carrying a burden that is seemingly meant for my stationary comfort? Jesus challenged His disciples, according to Luke’s gospel, that “Much will be required for everyone who has been given much. And even more will be expected of the one who has been entrusted more,” but we are also comforted by what the gospel of Matthew recorded from Jesus’ address to the crowd: “Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.” Accepting how the Spirit has chosen to speak to me through the ELD symposium, I resolve to be grateful for the blessed burden of a career in dentistry, as well as the burden of the gospel; but most of all, I am grateful that I may commit both, as I commit my life as a whole, to the One who Paul recognized “is able to do above and beyond all that we ask or think according to the power that works in us.”

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